We have all been to the Dr. and the paperwork is done!! For now….at least. We are waiting on a date for our homestudy. I have heard that it’s a hurry up and wait kind of process. So, we are just enjoying the time that we have together before our home gets crazy busy.
But looking back at the Dr. visits and Christian radio playing in the car, I’m just reminded that God is God….and he is guiding us right where we need to go.
When I went to the Dr. I just expected to be in and out. You see I really don’t have any major health concerns so, I just needed the form filled out. Well, of course if you pay attention to the little things in life, God shows up EVERYWHERE! When I made the appt. weeks in advance there were no appointments with my doctor. So, I got to pick the most convientent time for me. Knowing this I was a little surprised when I arrived and was told that I had to see a different doctor. It wasn’t a big deal to me because I just needed this form filled out and I knew I didn’t have any health concerns. Anyway, this was a God moment that I hadn’t even planned on. When I was speaking with this new doctor she was definitly a believer! She was asking about my pregnancy history and I explained that we have not been very successful in that area. We have no medical reasons why we can’t keep a baby. I explained that I have been through 10 miscarriages. She responded with, ” well that is definitly a closed door!” You see that just was just another reminder to me from a stranger that God put in my life for 20min, that adoption is where God wants us right now! She spoke to me from her heart and I was blessed! Don’t discount those little experiences that happen to you. God gives you those moments to be encouraged! And believe me….I was encouraged. It’s depressing to think of the loss that I have experienced, but encouraging to think about God’s will for me. The reminders God gives us that tell us good job, your on the right track, or just I love you are priceless!
Then when I was in the car, I was listening to some Christian music. Something I love!!! This song came on and was just another reminder that we make the choice to live for God and sometimes there are sacrifices….and always something better than we expected!
This is the song that really spoke to me….maybe it will speak to you too! It might even bring a tear to you!
Two months is too little
They let him go
They had no sudden healing
To think that providence would
Take a child from his motherwhile she prays
Who told us we’d be rescued?
What has changed and why should we be saved
We’re asking why this happens
To us who have died to live?
This is what it means to be held
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive.
This is what it is to be loved
And to know that the promise was
When everything fell we’d be held.
This hand is bitterness
We want to taste it,let the hatred know
The wise hands opens slowly
To lillies of the valley and tomorrow.
I know I have had times in my life that I thought were unfair, prayed for things that didn’t go the way I wanted them, asked why this is happening to me, had bitterness, and also had wise people open their hand to help me. So, you can see why I was a little touched by this song and reminded yet again, that I want to strive to live on God’s path not my own selfish path.
So, really the purpose of this post was just to say that God has little reminders everywhere. Pay attention and be encouraged!!! No matter what you are going through….He will hold you and it will be ok!!!!