Our Pastor challenged our congregation to not live what the rest of the world lives. Well, that sounds great when you are surrounded by your friends but when you go back to work or are cut off in traffic it’s a little bit harder to live differently. It sometimes creates anxiety. As I thought about this I definitely think adoption is living a little bit different but it does bring some anxiety. Well, our pastor also had some advice if anxiety does creep into your life when your trying to live differently. When Anxiety Knocks-Prayer Should Answer This was so comforting and a good reminder that through this adoption process or any other struggle we go through….prayer should be our first step!We always say that we are going to pray about things but really I think sometimes we just get so busy so we just go to people with our problems and not God. So, I wrote this down because I want to be reminded that when we get tired of waiting, get a bad report, or something that is not encouraging……we need to STOP and PRAY! Feel free to remind me of this if you see me struggling!
Rhees and I started to talk about what we were waiting on to really start this adoption process and we really didn’t have any great reason. We had what if questions and were trying to nail down how many kids, what kind of kids, special needs or not, and many other things that were really Satan just trying to get us to change our mind. So, we took the plunge and sent off the very first application and the $50.00 fee. This was my daughter’s birthday….I thought that was just perfect!!!
The next day, I was worshiping and praying for our boys. I was little bit scared that we had made a step but excited at the same time. When our pastor got up to speak he mentioned before he started to preach that money is just a tool. ( I’m telling you I just love that he listens to God and confesses with his lips because I just need that extra comfort that we are doing the right thing) Then, Oh Yes, he wasn’t done! Now remember that I had been praying for our BOY+s to come home….yes not just one. This is very important to remember. Then he had a prophetic word: Isaiah 54:2 “Enlarge your house; build an addition. Spread out your home, and spare no expense! For you will soon be bursting at the seams. Your descendants will occupy other nations and resettle the ruined cities. Fear not you will no longer live in shame. Don’t be afraid; there is no more disgrace for you. You will no longer remember the shame of your youth and the sorrows of widowhood. ”
God has given us this verse…we are continually praying this over our family! We will be bursting at the seams!!! People kept telling us that we would feel at peace when we had made the right decision. And I can tell you at this point we were definitely headed that direction. The worries and what if’s were dwindling. During another sermon I was also reminded that peace gives the confidence to step out in faith. AMEN!! As soon as we stepped out in faith the confusion and doubts started to go away.
So, if you are feeling like your peace will never come….get into God’s word, pray, and wait!!! There is peace in your near future!